Saturday, March 04, 2006

Support, Sedation & Overtime

Thank you so much for the comments & emails of support. They always mean so much more than I can ever express. The fact that anyone even reads this thing, let alone comments still amazes me. I never take the comments for granted.

Seeing my mother this morning was rough but unfortunately, I've been thru this a lot. She is still very sedated & it is painful to see her like this. Thinking about how vibrant & alive she was last weekend just hurts. A few days, a few words. She's broken. It just, hurts. They'll try to ease her out a bit this week & it'll be very touch & go. It always is. I know that something can trigger these episodes & I also know that sometimes nothing obvious triggers it. It just never gets any easier to go thru. She's the only person in my adult life that I am responsible for. I don't have a wife & kids & all of the expenses to go with a family of my own so I try to pour everything that I can into caring for her. My job is such a huge part of my life but my mother- if I can only get ONE thing right in this world, i'd want it to be her care.

I need to get some sleep & then Eames & I have work tonight. All the detectives are alternating nights this weekend to canvass the old Bowrey area. Whoever tortured & killed that poor woman last weekend is still out free & we really are worried that this guy is just getting warmed up. Someone HAS to know something.

That story is HERE in case you aren't familiar with it. The whole city is really on edge.

15 Comments:

Blogger VDOFan said...

You're Very Welcome Bobby, The fact that you are here and blogging with us is also amazing. and we're happy that you are a part of it. :)

Anyway that is such a sad story, I hope guys catch him. I hope Eames comes back too I miss her;)

Also, you are doing a wonderful job of making sure your mother gets the best care.. and when you are not looking the right woman will come along, and if she loves you as much as you love her, she will devote her time with your mother as well..

God bless you Bobby.

hugs Janice

3:50 PM  
Blogger JessicaW said...

Great site hun. I wish you well and I hope everything goes well!

4:13 PM  
Blogger DebWalsh said...

As you know I love your Blog and I am here for you...Goodluck in getting the info you need tonight.
:)

4:33 PM  
Blogger kathryn said...

I have read a couple of articles about the murder of that young woman. She was just slightly older than my own child. I cannot imagine what it must be like for her mother, to know that her beloved child's last moments were full of fear, pain and such absolute horror, with no one there to help her.
Cases like this make our justice system seem so . . . civilized. Whatever happens to the guilty person(s), even the worst we have to offer, will be a mild reproach compared to what happened to this girl.
I take comfort in the fact that God has the final say. Even at our most extreme, we can't top that.
Be safe, Bobby. And be careful. You are pursuing a monstrous evil. God bless you, and others like you, who do their best to keep us safe.

4:49 PM  
Blogger The Rev. Dr. Kate said...

I am glad that you find support in the comments we make. Try and remember that you are not alone in those moments when everything overwhelms you. I think you have gotten ONE thing right - and in her clearer moments, I think your mother knows that too. Please take some comfort in that!
I hope you did sleep some. . . Be careful out there tonight. I know Eames always has your back, but I hope she is especially vigilant now (and I hope she checks in with us soon too!). With what you have been through the past few weeks, you probably aren't as prepared and alert as you would otherwise be. On the otherhand, working hard will probably help you now. In my work, I have to stay away from judgment - I am called to the work of mercy - but our society would not and cannot survive without folks like you and Eames, Logan and Bareck, et. al who do the work of justice - as imperfect as human justice can feel when you are dealing with the kind of monster who is out there somewhere tonight. One thing I have learned in the past few years since coming to the NYPD is just how much the work you all do matters and what it costs so many of you to do it. God bless you all and keep you safe.
Kate+

5:33 PM  
Blogger Sara said...

I'm just a little freaked out from this case. Please find him soon Bobby, i have faith in all of you.

Tell Alex we love her.

Sara

7:23 PM  
Blogger Gorengyrl said...

Okay, I could have sworn I'd commented recently on one of your recent blogs.

You're a great son Bobby, she knows you're there whether you know it or not, and that means alot to her. Don't let it stress you on though sweetie, things will turn out for the best, I know that's hard to beleive now. She wouldn't want you to be stressed. But do be there for her, but don't worry to much you make yourself sick. Okay? Best wishes to you and your mother. You both deserve all the best.

Hugs, Kara

8:52 PM  
Blogger bogusboobs said...

Bless you and the rest of the NYPD on this cold dark night of the soul. I'd have to agree that whomever tortured that poor girl is destined to strike again. "He's got a real taste for it now."

Hurry and find him ...

9:29 PM  
Blogger Amey said...

It's frightening and despicable what a person can do to another person.

Absolutely horrible.

10:33 PM  
Blogger Selena Marie said...

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10:50 PM  
Blogger MartyF said...

You're amazed anyone stops by here?

No detective, that's not so amazing. The amazing thing is that you're still at it.

But I can understand....after all, look at all the visitors I'm (not) getting. I feel sometimes like John the Baptist - a voice crying out in the wildernes. If you publish a blog and no one sees (or answers) it, does it exist?....

2:16 PM  
Blogger MartyF said...

To Selena

I'm reasonably sure that D'Onofrio is either writing this himself in character as an acting exercise, or perhaps Balcer, Wolf, et al are doing this as a sort of writing exercise.

2:18 PM  
Blogger Jen said...

My boss and colleague go to that bar, The Falls, often. Well, not anymore.

It's terrifying.

10:59 PM  
Blogger Jules said...

It's a crying shame they don't disembowel people who perpetrate these types of crimes in the town square with an option for the rest of the nation to watch it on Pay-Per-View. People like this should be dragged through the streets by their scrotum. That has got to be a horrible way to go, and I sypmathize with her family....

11:59 AM  
Blogger MartyF said...

Jules...

They do shit like that in the Middle East. Can you tell me with a straight face it'd be any safer in Beirut or Baghdad than it is in SoHo or Tribeca?

12:22 PM  

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